Hi, I'm Melissa

I’M HERE TO HELP YOU MOVE
FROM FEAR TO FREEDOM!

 

 

 

 

I spent the first 30 years of my life

a prisoner in my own body. I was in a constant cycle of fear, shame and guilt.

I didn’t feel like I had a voice.  Didn’t know myself. I had no deep friendships (or any real friendships at all) because my shame kept my true self hidden.  I took zero risks letting people get close to me. During those 30 years I:

  • was born into a cult with a belief system that was based around high demand religious rules, male power and fear
  • lived each day hidden, even from those closest to me
  • I tried so hard to look and act like those around me to fit into what I though a woman, wife and mother was supposed be
  • was ashamed of and disconnected from my body

 

All this led to…

Anxiety, panic attacks, depression hidden behind a smile

I suffered alone because admitting I had problems meant something was wrong with me

I read so many books, magazines, blogs to try and help me fit into the life carved out for a good mother, a good wife.

I stayed at home with my kids, I made all the best food, read all the right parenting books, pretending to have it all together and judging those not up to my standards.

I went to bed each night desperately wanting a bigger life, knowing I wasn’t good enough, I hadn’t made enough progress.  Tomorrow I would try harder…

Meanwhile my husband helped me as I suffered through one panic attack after another. 

 

That's when I learned the art of running away...

  • I had two babies, no job, a severely injured husband and a life that was killing me.

  • We sold everything we owned, bought a 20 year old truck and RV and moved our family into a 45 ft long home.

  • I told myself it was because I loved adventure and wanted to see the country

  • But I was actually running away from a life that was suffocating me 

But wait there's more...

We spent months remodeling our tiny home all while I was pregnant with my third baby! 

After my third daughter was born I was diagnosed with Lyme disease which sent me into one of the darkest periods of my life.  It was in this darkness that the pressure of living up to perfection took it’s toll and I hit rock bottom – causing cracks to form all over my perfectly plated life.

In this darkness, hope showed up

A woman befriended me - she was fire in human form.
She was all the things I wasn't supposed to be.
She said and did whatever she wanted!
She talked about her story vulnerably and without shame.
What was this magical person!?

OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS SHE HELPED ME

find my voice, courage and bravery!

I made a decision during this time that changed my life…

No more lying.

No more pretending I was ok, pretending I was happy.  No more pretending I didn’t have questions and doubts.

This one decision caused me to practice courage daily.  And slowly I left the rules that were crushing me. Started to see myself as worthy of my own love and acceptance.  Learned to see the divine inside my soul.  Started to have fun for the first time in my life.  I was learning to write my own rules.  Use my own voice. Access my own power.

Freedom began to beat in my chest!

And then I ran away again

The final straw was cancer

When my sister was diagnosed with cancer I left my whole life (husband, kids, job, responsibilities) and went to stay with her in Thailand for a month.

There’s nothing quite like a month of sister talk, Thai massage and complete separation from your life to help you realize you built a life far from your hearts longings! 

I had one of my last panic attacks in Thailand.  I lay curled up in a ball dreading returning to my life and its structure I had built while in my prison.  My sister (not so gently) suggested I figure out a solution or I may just end up with sick as well.

but years of practicing bravery and truth telling

meant this time things were about to get really good!

Within two months of returning home, I had sold everything we owned (again) rented the tiniest trailer and moved across the country from Maryland to Utah!

This time I wasn’t running away.  I was running toward my longings – nature, hiking, mountains!

It was at that point I found my souls calling and launched my business.  I was meant to help people like you break out of their own prison of uncertainly and discover the freedom to live a life they desire.

I want to help you find hope in your darkness

So you can leave fear, shame and guilt behind + find your voice and create a life you love waking up to!

Start towards building a life of confidence and being your true self around others today!

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